Dear Mandy,

Daniel, your love personality type is ISFP

About 5% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.Being an ISFP means that you're the kind of person who can usually be counted on. More than most people, your integrity seems to be of central importance to you. This fact bodes well for those around you. It means you tend to say what you mean, keep your promises, and walk your talk. There's very little empty chatter when you're around. Another way you show you can be counted on is by being sensitive to others. You usually know just the right thing to do to make someone feel valued in your life. Although you're not the kind who's big on intense emotional confessions or displays, your feelings run deep. One way you're able to show your true emotions is by being faithful. In relationships, you'll usually try hard to make things work. Unlike some, you're not likely to freak out when there's a bump in the road. This is probably just another aspect of your patience and ability to stay on task.

Dear Mandy...

I had a long online conversation with Shih yesterday, and I realise how much I really respect and love this wonderful friend of mine whom I treat as my sister... honest... I realised that for where I'm not good enough, Shih is the person I look at for inspiration and advice... and most of the time, when I look at the pple who are online... I know that she'll be the first person I'll turn to when I just want someone to talk to... don't know if you'll read this Shih, but I hope I can be that someone for you when you're unhappy too...

It's going to be a new year now... in 2 hours... and as I look back on 2005, I realise that all the hell I've been through in NS only served to make me see who are my real, true friends, and who are the people that I can do without in the Army... I've found reliable and dependable friends, strong friendships... and I've also met people who are not that impactful in my life, and are people I will most prob not remember once I ORD... but that's life.

I value friends who care for me a lot now. And for my dearest friends who happen to be overseas (Actually it's only Kristy and Anhua), you people are always dear to me for you've done so much! And there's the council, esp Rachel, Sanjay, Joel Hui Zhi, Hui Yi, Sara and Sanjee... the people who've been there for me when I needed someone... and to Venle and Tryph and Maggie for cheering me up, and to Sanjiv, Abby, Harminder, Jacqueline Seng, Jacqueline Tang, David, Edrei, Samson, and to a lot of other people who've been there for me and encouraging me along the way...

2006 I hope will be a good year for everyone... because you are all sweet and lovely and special in your own way...

Dear Mandy...

Life in 30 SCE? Well, I dunno how to put it. On one hand, I don't really like the place, and yet, perhaps it's because I'm unable to throw away the cadet mentality, I fear talking to higher authorities, I'm afraid of doing certain things. Sigh... add on the fact I have 2 e mail mistakes to the higher authorities and gotten so called scolded, things haven't been to a good start, but I believe I'll learn.

I went out with Jay, Jiv and Joel this Monday, 261206, and we had a blast! Apart from the twins coming for basketball 2 hours late, we went for lunch, then bowling, then Joel's house for badminton! I enjoyed it a lot a lot... it made me miss the close friends and the "no barrier" notion I shared with many people back in VJC, which, sadly, I don't anymore. There're more and more unseen barriers, more and more restrictions... I don't know. We're drifting, some of us, and it honestly isn't nice...

I used to be able to look at my hp and when I'm sad, I can just easily call up someone or sms someone and just chat. I can't do that anymore. I seem to rely on myself one time to often, and I hope it'll be of some good eventually... cause the feeling sometimes really isn't what it seems to be. But of course, as a result, I am stronger, and can handle more stress... so all in all, it is a pretty good thing after all.

Lastly... I miss u people... though I have nothing much to say to you all when we meet, I still love u all... :)

Hey Mandy...

Merry Christmas 2005... to one and all this year... This year has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions and events this year... and it has been a year of learning as well as of revelations... I don't think it's necessary to recap everything that has gone by... What's bygone is bygone... But I guess I'll talk a bit of it.

I learnt that even if you put in lots and lots of effort into a relationship, it doesn't mean it will work out eventually... I learnt that if you put in effort into your work, it doesn't necessarily mean that it's the best piece u can ever do. I learnt that friendship is not necessarily the most important thing in the world... I learnt to stay neutral in my priorities... There's a lot I've learnt... but this year... I guess what's the most important lesson I've learnt is that it doesn't pay to be overly nice to some people, but it's alright to be nice... and especially to the few people whom I shower so much affection on these few weeks... :) I guess u know u r special to me... :)

Revelations? Haha... a lot... I make a better friend than a lover, I may not always know everything, but I try to learn... I'm overly nice... I'm childish but I harbour mature thinkings that I don't like to share... I am very VJ-oriented... I think too much... and a lot more, but these are the more major ones I've been going through in my mind... haha...

I realise that I've shut myself out from a lot of people... as in... I used to talk a lot abt personal stuff? But now... apart from a few people, I don't anymore... haha... perhaps that's why I find that I can't click with certain people anymore, why I don't talk as much, why I always talk on the same topics, why I leave early sometimes. That's today's new finding... we learn new things every day...

These days, I've been watching the old Korea serial "Popcorn" and I really like the girl! Kim Kyu Ree acts as Xian Xiu... and she's someone independent, yet caring and kind and sweet... She's also someone who takes pride in her work, easily being the best employee of her company, who does weddings for people... you know... the photo taking, the walking down the aisle... stuff like that... but she's terminally ill, and she also takes care of her brother who's wheelchair bound... and she meet this guy... Ying Xun, who falls for her and hard... the whole series shows really romantic moments... like how she says that if you find a conch shell and say I love you into it and mean it, the person who u give it to, and is the one you love, will be able to hear it. And the next day, early morning, he went to find a conch shell for her... or how they both plan a wedding for free for a couple who're deaf and dumb! Or how about when he's had a very bad argument with his elder brother, and he leaves a msg on her phone, saying he's going crazy and he doesn't know why, but he just has to see her? Only thing is she leaves her phone on the car... and she leave him a msg saying she'll be at his house, only thing his brother spolit his phone. So he waits at her house, and she waits at his house and they don't leave until it's late, and they leave at about the same time. The next morning, when she gets her phone and hears the msg, she rushes straight to his house. And he, on his way to work, sees her, then turns his motorcycle around and rushes to his house. When they meet, he's upset... and says "Why when I need to see you, I never seem to be able to find you? Why is it so difficult to just see even one glance at you?" And she goes "Why don't you ever tell me anything? I want to know everything about you, why do you shut me out?" And after that, they have a heart to heart chat... it's a simple moment, yet sweet.

And then I watched Final Fantasy, the movie... I'm definitely in a sappy, romantic mood... haha.... Dr. Aki Ross rocks! Haha... she shares similar traits as Xian Xiu... haha... enough said... I still have Before Sunset to pursue...haha...

There's a lot of things that I wish I knew, I wish I had, I wish I could.. but I also know that there's no way I can achieve things that are out of my reach, no matter how i try. And... there's no way of achieving somethings that I wish i could either... who am I to judge? I'm not... haha...

Alright, it's a lot for one entry already.... take care Mandy. And Merry Christmas again.

Dear Mandy....

Have you ever had the feeling that sometimes, no matter how you try to make things seem ok, u know they never will? Haha... I get that feeling a lot of late... and it scares me sometimes, to know that I may be attempting the impossible, and yet, I still do it. Why? Because I have to? I don't know.. haha... I don't even know myself as well as I think i should... perhaps it's because I've put up too many facades that I myself have neglected the fact that I should take care of myself as well...

I tried all those quizzes off Vee's blog, and well, haha... they more or less reflect the same thing sometimes... about well, me and the way I treat people. Oh, please don't get me wrong, there's nothing I don't like about being nice to my friends and doing things for them... I just wish there was more I could do... I know it's really wishful thinking... how much of my true self have I shown to the people I live with day in day out? And how much do people appreciate me? I dunno... am I trustworthy to them? And how do I know if I'm doing too much? These questions keep running through my head these days... ever since so many people came to my Commissioning parade, ever since that moment that I started talking to some people...

You may be wondering why... well... I'm so touched so many people make the effort to come down, and yet I feel bad that I can't chat with them as much as I'd like to... and I feel so thankful for their friendship... but... but... is what I'm doing enough? I really wish I knew... There're so many restrictions that I can't seem to evade... why?! And... nvm... this is a private thought...

I know there're no definite answers to these questions... but till then, I'd like to see how much I can do for people... in special case a few people that I just feel a need to do more for.... who they are? That's for me to know, and u to find out... :)

In any case, I love u all still.

Your element is Light. Your heart is pure and
shining with love. You believe in the goodness
of those around you and give almost everyone a
smile. You are not the kind to hide your
happiness and tend to smile all day long, both
in and out. But when sadness hits you, you
become very devastated and may be upset for
quite some time. What you need in your life is
friends, friends who will love you
unconditionally, like you love them. But you
have a naive nature and don't always notice
when someone is trying to hurt you. Some would
say you are oblivious to mean people, which
makes you an easy target. However, your true
friends will probably be there for you and save
you. In school you are either the popular one
or the little weird one. It all depends if
"the higher people" find your caring
side irritating or not. Nevertheless, you have
a bubbly personality and are social. Big partys
may not be your thing since you want bonding
time with your friends, so slumber-partys fit
you more. You like the happy things in life and
like everyone else to be as happy as you are.
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Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic! You find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger then most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes. Not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses. Dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.

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~Guardian Angel~
A protecter. A fighter. A defender. You will do
anything to protect the ones you care about.
You wll even self sacrafice yourself for them.
You think they deserve more than you, and you
think its your duty to protect them, in anyway
you can.
A guardian, will help,
physically and also emotionaly, But they will
also protect themselves.
Weapon:Sword
"I will die to protect, to know that.. i
have done this for those i care about"

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Dear Mandy...

I've commissioned... it's true.. but... well.. I'm happy, yes, but also apprehensive about the new responsibilities that have been placed upon my shoulders. I want to be a good PC, but I'm pretty much new to this thing... I guess it's a normal thing to be apprehensive...

One thing I'm glad about... SO MANY PEOPLE FROM VJC WERE AT THE COMMISSIONING PARADE!!! That was so memorable? And like... wow.... haha... I'm so touched by the spirit of VJC people manz... haha... Thank YOU to Nat, Siva, Sanjay, Sanjiv, Amalina, Moses, Tiffany, Joel Lee, Sara, Hui Zhi, Joanna, Priya, Edrei, Sangeeta, Sanjeewa, Jason, Amy and Hui Yi.... u people made my commissioning much more memorable... and also to Katrina, Jac Tang, and the WOCCs for their words as well... :)

Well... that's all for now...