Dear Mandy...
Well... what a WEEK! It's been one full of revelations and stress and physical activities, that many a time, I feel myself overwhelmed and on the verge of just breaking down and giving up, despite the holidays... what makes this revelation much worse is the fact that it's not going to be the end. It's only the beginning after I found out I was appointed as CWC... sigh... I dunno... I just need to be strong... really strong, and do my best. It's not easy... already got s****** big time on my 1st day of appointment, but that's the way SOCE CTW runs, and that's the way we learn fast and are able to endure through intense stress...

Throughout this week, I realised that perhaps I'm really too naive... I found out so many things... things like how when people embark on a new world, find new friends, they neglect the old ones unless they mean a lot to them or there just so happens to be a meeting or gathering of some sort, and then they update each other on what has happened on their lives. I feel uncomfortable finding people to confide in, and to just talk to... Forget the fact that I'm in army, but the main thing is, people I used to be so comfortable just approaching them suddenly to me, it becomes an arduous task. Be it councillors or other people, it just feels that way. Soon, people are going to be leaving S'pore, and I now know that in some funny sense? I'll soon be forgotten, and my footprint in the sand will just be washed away just like any other impression.

Everyone's busy with their own lives now, and it gets harder and harder to stay in contact. I've been living in my own world far far too long, in that tight circle of innocence and naivity... but my bubble burst, and now I see the harsh realities of the modern world. In truth? It sucks. But if that's the way life is going to be, then rest assured I'll become like that. Been hurt one time too many and I so agree with people that I'm too nice... but that's the way I am, and I'll stay that way. Detect the irony? Haha... I'll still be the same, nice guy who everyone can turn to for help and a listening ear... just don't expect me to be overly dependent on u pple anymore k... I'll be strong, independent, and no longer that dependent and whiney guy. Someone made me see that, and I will be just that.

But I also know that there are true friends who honestly care for me... Abby and Gwen. Gwen is the surprise mei... haha...who just out of the blue surprises me that she cares for me. Haha... and Abby... my best friend from the start... thank you... And there's always the 21st SC! Especially Santosh, Jing-Yi, Yulan and my angel! Mini!! :) THanks u all...

Nil Sine Labore

Dear Mandy...
Just a song that has caught me since I heard it, here it is... It's a really meaningful song, yet it's kinda off in some funny sense... haha... but I do like the song for it's meaning and it's tune... To me friends, if you ever really need someone, you know that I'll be around.

AROUND THE CORNER OF YOUR EYE- A Teens

If you knew how many nights
I've been sleeping by your bed
Running fingers through your hair while you're asleep
Everytime I call your name
Something whisper in your ear
Turn around to look for me and no one's there

Wherever you are, wherever you go
I'll be around
I'll be around, just want you to know
just want you to know

If you;'re lost without me
Wondering where I might be
I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye
Like an engel watching
Need me when you're dreaming
i'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye

I can be your pot of gold
Everything you're wishing for
Do you really wanna find the rainbows there
Let me know and I'll come true
I will give my all to you
Don't let anyone take your dream away

Wherever you are, wherever you go
I'll be around
I'll be around, just want you to know
Just want you to know

If you're lost without me,
Wondering where I might be
I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye
Like an angel watching
Need me when you're dreaming
I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye

There's a song playing
And every heart feels it
If you peek at almost every door
There's a time for knowing
What's behind the curtain
And it's all you're wishing for
All you're wishing for

If you're lost without me
Wondering where I might be
I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye
like an angel watching
Need me when you're dreaming
I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye