Much going through my mind, and much to settle.
I understand clearer now Shakespeare's famous line in Hamlet:
"To be or not to be, that is the question."
Well, it's always a choice what we want to be. And expectations, society and many other things always have that clear cut definition of who THEY want you to be.
If you're smart, then there's the expectations that you'll maintain that level of academic excellence. It doesn't matter if you have low EQ. You just need to maintain that.
If you're capable, then everyone expects you to always be efficient and able to make ends meet. You can never make an error judgment, because you aren't supposed to be overwhelmed. You're capable, remember? So no matter what comes, you can handle it.
Or is that so?
God's greatest gift is choice.
And I kind of believe, that God never intended us to feel that way. That we need to maintain expectations, that we need to continue to be somebody that others see us as. Not what we see ourselves as.
As humans, we're innately selfish. Even I admit I am. So let's put aside the pretences for this one moment and admit that we are all selfish people. We care for ourselves more than others. We are not selfless because we cannot afford to be self-less.
And for me as a Christian, I acknowledge that it is God that gives us the capacity to love.
Perhaps the question to ask is how close are we walking with God? I know that the recent weeks it's been a rocky journey. And as recent events show, it does reveal much to me. Wherever is the innocence and childlike naivity that we used to exude, or rather, that we are supposed to exude?
Perhaps, seemingly lost.
And then we come back to square one all over again. Ugh.
But.. when we come back to square one... is it really the same square one? Or the square one of a newer level?
I'd like to think we've learnt from our experiences and somewhat start at a different square one.
So.. I will be stronger, and I will be more guarded. Because gradually, I see clearer what I believe in.
If you're smart, then there's the expectations that you'll maintain that level of academic excellence. It doesn't matter if you have low EQ. You just need to maintain that.
If you're capable, then everyone expects you to always be efficient and able to make ends meet. You can never make an error judgment, because you aren't supposed to be overwhelmed. You're capable, remember? So no matter what comes, you can handle it.
Or is that so?
God's greatest gift is choice.
And I kind of believe, that God never intended us to feel that way. That we need to maintain expectations, that we need to continue to be somebody that others see us as. Not what we see ourselves as.
As humans, we're innately selfish. Even I admit I am. So let's put aside the pretences for this one moment and admit that we are all selfish people. We care for ourselves more than others. We are not selfless because we cannot afford to be self-less.
And for me as a Christian, I acknowledge that it is God that gives us the capacity to love.
Perhaps the question to ask is how close are we walking with God? I know that the recent weeks it's been a rocky journey. And as recent events show, it does reveal much to me. Wherever is the innocence and childlike naivity that we used to exude, or rather, that we are supposed to exude?
Perhaps, seemingly lost.
And then we come back to square one all over again. Ugh.
But.. when we come back to square one... is it really the same square one? Or the square one of a newer level?
I'd like to think we've learnt from our experiences and somewhat start at a different square one.
So.. I will be stronger, and I will be more guarded. Because gradually, I see clearer what I believe in.
