Dear Mandy...

I changed the song on my blog to one that I really like... Well.. most of the songs on my Imeem I like, or are songs of the moment.. but these worship songs are those that I don't have.. and the lyrics for this song really speak to me. Especially the chorus:

"And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the Spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace"
-"I will run to You" by Hillsongs

And I think that this is really apt. Since the G12 conference till now, I found myself being more and more sensitive to God, hearing Him, and I really love walking close to Him. Everything seems to be more bearable, and though there are times when I slip, or feel down, I find that praying to Him always helps, because I know and sense that He's really around me.

There're a lot of things that the Lord placed upon my heart ever since the G12 conference, and I hope that I have really grown from this experience, and am able to be more able to handle everything that comes my way... spending at least 45 mins in worship everyday, or rather, attempting to do so, really helps remind me that my help comes from God, and the need of not being complacent and forgetting to pray to God in keeping my heart a heart of flesh instead of a stoney one for His glory. Quiet time in the morning has been getting increasingly better.. I think I've got a lot to give thanks for! =)

Speaking of giving thanks.. I've come to realise in this season of "Love Your Neighbour", it's been pretty much about the little things, and the heart that count. Be it promising to keep someone in prayer and doing so, or going out of your way to help people... I believe that in time, these things are what really matter. Sure people will remember the one or two things that you did which is impactful to them, but more often than not, people actually remember the heart of the person more over the actions of the person. =)

More to come, and more to share.. till then, it's 4 project essays and 1 presentation to go... haha.. By the blood of Jesus, I will overcome! =)

Dear Mandy...

There are times when I wonder if thinking too much is detrimental to health.

My closest friends know that I tend to think too much.. that's why one of my salient points is to draw abstract links from things that seem too different to have similarities.. but I somehow manage to do so. Of course, the down side of thinking too much is that you start to dwelve into domains of that thread of thought that you shouldn't really think about; tackling issues that are not supposed to be tackled then, and then, getting yourself all emotional or worried about things that are not yet to come.

However, as with all skills, it can be properly harnessed, and I believe that with maturity and coming of age, you end up being able to use this particular skill better. I'm starting to see that indeed, I'm not as strong as I think I am, because there're always higher levels and there'll be new challenges that come along when you think you're ready. Your past experiences only prepare you to know that your adaptability is less tedious, but you still have that bit of adjusting to do.

As Pila says... God is with me.. He is Emmanuel. And as surely as He made the stars in the sky, I will trust in Him, because He has a plan to prosper me. =)