Dear Mandy,

I've finished my exams here in UVic, but instead of the normal euphoria that I would feel in NUS after finishing my exams, I feel relief, and a twinge of sadness, because this is it. It's the end of my school life here, and as I'm in the library typing this, looking out the library's window to the quiet, peaceful, serene campus of UVic, I gotta say that I'm actually a tad wistful.

It's been great here. I don't have to say more. I love the people, the community, and even my lessons.. if anything, that's just been an awesome experience that I really can't wish for anything more. Sure I've had my ups and downs in this place, and it's also been a journey of growth and learning. But above all else, as I look back... I see how God has blessed my SEP, and how I am certain, and confident that I'm more prepared, rested and ready for what may come when I head back to SG.

Of course, I'm not saying I'll ever be fully prepared, and God has kind of prompted me that it's going to be quite a bit of things to do when I head back... be it church, school, personal life.. let's just say that this might be the last long break that I'm going to have from responsibilities for quite some time. On this journey, I discovered more of who I am, and what I want. Also, discovered that there's a whole new culture and life out there that no one can really know and have enough of. I know for certain I'm going to miss the community here... heck, I'm already missing them already, seeing how they've all flown off to their separate parts of Canada, and soon, so will I.

Heading back to SG... mixed feelings, definitely. But it is what I have been called to go, it is where I have to be. At least until the Lord tells me otherwise, this is where I'm to be. Though I'd love to stay here in Victoria and do stuff for the homeless here where I've really seen a real need... but it's either not my calling, or not my time. So back to SG it is. =)

My last days here in Canada. =) Je'taime Canada! =)

Dear Mandy,

The time here has come down to the last 16 days, and how do I feel? Mixed.

There's really so much to let go of, but the truth being that it's not just about Canada, UVic, or the people and community that I've met and lived with... but it's also stuff back in Singapore that I've gotta let go of. I have this feeling that I'm not the same person that I was when I left Singapore., and that I've grown up more, and even a tad more mellowed than normal. And I think that that's good. =)

It's definitely a lot of things that I'm thinking of, a lot of things that I know that I have to reflect on, think clearly about, and a lot of things that I'll have to do upon my return. I don't know how my adjustment back to SG would be, but hey... I'll walk trusting the Lord for that. =)

But it's definitely easier said than done! Meredith Grey said in an episode in Season 5 : "Every minute in life is borrowed time... so we push each loss as far away as we possibly can." How so true... how so true.