Yeah, I've kinda disappeared for a good month plus, but the truth is, I haven't really been having any inspiration of late to do any blogging. But after doing so much linear algebra, and still uncertain of how well I'll do for the mid term tests, I'm seriously dying out. Haha... what can I say? Hmm... this is Week 8 of uni.. and here's some of my views!
1) No matter how hardworking you are, the workload never stops piling up, and it's a never ending flow of tutorials, readings, lectures, projects and essays... and when you have a mid term test, you make a huge sacrifice of studying for the mid term test, and neglect your daily routine of lectures and tutorials, and when your mid term test is over, your workload and the amount of catching up to go for indefinitely doubles, and you find yourself suffocated by the amount of work you have to do to catch up. Even as I take this 1hr break from my linear algebra revision, I'm mentally counting the number of readings, tutorials and webcast lectures I have to catch up on. If it helps, of my entire Sociology course book, I've only read 1 out of 10 readings. Each reading is about 15 pages... I rest my case.
2) Next, it doesn't mean that the more hardworking you are, the more definite you will do well for your exams and essays. I mean, objectively speaking, if we are to really be on par, then oh gosh... we'd have to survive with like 4 to 5 hours of sleep each night, give up going out too often, and give up your personal time to actually be able to keep up to mark with all that's going on, and to have extra time to do extra revision so you can ensure that you retain everything that you have learnt, and can apply them when the time comes.
3) Uni is hard to adapt to, given that the pace is crazier than JC, and the diversity of everything is WHOA!!!! Hahaha... I'm trying hard to find similarities between all the modules, but all 5 are rather diverse, and well, so much in depth that it really makes JC pale in comparison. Whoever said that Uni isn't as stressful as JC? I'm aiming for a good CAP score of abt 4.0, and well, to look at it that way, and my recent English test of 18/30, I need to work even harder than I am now...
Well, those are the 3 main views that I have at the moment, and well, if anybody disagrees, I welcome the disagreements. Of course, I have had moments of inspiration, and moments of dissipation... but hey... that's life, isn't it? And I think God gave each of us our own set of challenges, aspirations and expectations to hit, and I do believe that if God leads us to it, He will lead us through it. He will make a way, when there seems to be no way. Amen!
I need a breather, and after this mid term tests are over, I will go for a nice long run. Hahaha... I miss running... and of course, I miss the times in VJC where we'd have all those long, nice chats about nothing in general. Or sitting at the Council stairs, sitting by the swings, and the endless bouts of Polar Bear. Hahaha... memories won't fade away? But time doesn't wait for us... it always moves on, and that's the irony of time. Time can come to a standstill in nostalgia, yet moves doubly fast when the nostalgia ends.
Thank God though, for His presence and His love... that sweeps over me to tide me through rough times. I'm constantly reminded of His promises to me, like how during service yesterday, Joel prayed for me, using the example of the Samarian woman... and I really felt God's words through Joel hitting me hard.
And of course, there's Rainie... things between us have mellowed down, indefinitely... cause both of us are busy with exams and our own stressful academic lives, and she'll be going to Shanghai this coming Thursday. Will I miss her? Yeah, I will, because despite the mellowing of emotions, she's still by and large, a very important part of my life. She's still my motivation at times, and I do realise that when I get depressed, she's still the first few people I think of, and the one I would really like to turn to.
Well, back to Linear Algebra! :)