Dear Mandy,
What a week!! To say that it was good is totally wrong, and to say that it was super tiring is an understatement. I'm currently very sleepy, tired, and struggling to come to terms with everything that has happened of late, and trying to make some head or tail of why it happened, and why God made the week this way...
Monday and Tuesday were relatively okay... come to think of it, I can't even remember what I did on Monday and Tuesday! Oh dear... I'm beginning to suffer from short term memory? Sigh... oh, I remember on Monday I went for the PKE brief, which was a total waste of time because there didn't seem to be anything being said or revealed, to begin with. After that, I went to pass Gayne her remedied Project Work Written Report at SRJC. It was kinda funny? Haha... my mom drove me there, so these SRJC boys pointed at me and laughed. Then imagine their horror when I got out of the car and walked towards the gate, where they were. Suddenly, they lost their mirth and pretended to look elsewhere. I of course, couldn't be bothered and just walked straight in to find Gayne. When Gayne saw me, it was quite obvious she was happy, and kinda relieved, as I found out later. Then I left for dinner, before I went back to camp to shoot hoops all by myself... kinda liked the feeling though. On Tuesday... we set up the hoop at the basketball court to immediate effect, and good use!
Wednesday was my turn to be the DOO. As is always, a lot of funny funny things happened and I found myself unable to really concentrate on my work.. as sad as it is... so I found myself more often than not being neither here nor there, and just hopping around like a teenybopper with my head chopped off. I got quite stressed, and ended up being a childish DOO who literally got childish. Then I closed the armskotes by 7pm, and had enough time to go and have a chat in the mess before SINGAPORE IDOL! Joakim and Paul gave me headaches, but Jasmine improved quite a fair bit. As is his genre, Jonathan won the night hands down, and Hady gave a fairly good performance. Then I went for staff parade. Shortly after that, I received news that somebody had food poisoning, so what was meant to be an incident-less DOO duty became an incident report night. So after all the hoo hah had been settled, I ended up having to tell Jessamyn the remaining story of "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks. Kinda miss talking to Jessamyn, but I guess we're both busy with everything to really seriously have a chat, so I guess that's that. I thought that I could sleep after that, but my Training Spec came back to work at midnight and we ended up having a discussion about work until 1am!?!? I was so groggy by the time I got back to the Ops Room next door to sleep, and I had to wake up at 5am to open the armskotes! Talk about lack of sleep!
Thursday saw myself waking up, as said at 5am, to open armskotes... I was sleepy, groggy and was just dragging myself to open them! Talk about a bad morning... luckily for myself, the opening had no problems whatsoever, but after that I was waiting to send the report, and in the end, I ended up concussing until about 7plus! I was so stunned that I quickly got up, sent the report and went to the mess to have a hot drink. I handed over to Mau Mau, and realised that I cannot go to the office this way... I headed back to bunk to sleep for about 2 hrs before I headed back to the office... only to be met by my training spec, who by the way ended up sleeping at his table until the morning, with a couple of bombs that I myself was surprised about. I suddenly realised that he was pushing part of his work onto me to do, and whatever crap he had said about preparing to takeover some of my work because I was going to clear leave is pure bulls**t. I realised that he can't even handle his own work properly, let alone mine on top of that... but I do understand his concern, and appreciate it. But I'm not willing to take the risk and come back from leave only to find out that the amount of work I accumulated is more that what I had originally left. So Thursday saw myself rushing through lots of unfinished stuff, including his work, and then I headed off to VS for the VS130 meeting. Along the way there, I was bombed with calls from my training spec for things that he had expected me to have done and informed... and I'm thinking where has the hierarchy gone wrong, and where was his sense of responsibility? Perhaps he understands that he has incurred the wrath of one officer too many due to his mishaps, but that still isn't the way to go about it.. but I just took it in... nothing much I could do about it.
VS 130 meeting was a short and relatively good one. Mansoor sat in for the meeting, and we managed to make all the major decisions. We came to a conclusion about many things, and I guess I left with a better idea of what I needed to do, and what not. I was tired by the time I reached camp, and after supper, I just went back to the bunk to rest. I had intended to just rest all the way, but I ended up going to my office to type out an e-mail to Vernon to update him on what went on during the meeting. That went on to past midnight, so after my prayers and everything, I slept at about close to 1am.
Friday I woke up for range at about 6am... can just picture a very bleary eyed Daniel dragging himself down to draw arms and go off for range... I got to sleep every now and then during the range, so I caught up on some sleep, and I did promise myself not to pick up phone calls, and I'm proud of myself that I didn't. Anyway, the range went well, and I prayed to God every now and then to bless the conduct of the range and the people taking it so that they may all pass. And it went so smoothly and everything... so thank God!
I decided to stay in camp that night, and ZY, Eugene, Ben, Eddie, Tim, Ervin, Samuel and LTA Look had fun that night with pizza delivery and also a late night gaming session in the mess... it was a night of fun!
As I look back on the week, I realise that there's so much I can improve on, and so much I can do... I just need to work harder... and hope I don't kill myself in the process... take care...
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Dear Mandy,
Happy National Day... It's a holiday for some, but not for most... especially if you, like the men of 'D' Company, 30 SCE are involved in the marching contingent of the parade later. It's been so long since I was last involved in a major parade, any my claims to fame happen to be SYF Parade and my own Commissioning Parade. Haha... what's bygone is bygone, in any sense and as I'm writing to you, I realise that I've still got work that I've yet to do.
These last week or so hasn't been anything good, to begin with, what with S3 going on course and dropping majority, if not, ALL of his workload onto the shoulders of Wilson, Lincoln and myself. And, given that CPT Pang has yet to come back from his holiday, it seems like the fort will be held by the three of us once again, except this time around, it's not going to be easy. I find the three of us being stressed out and bogged down by the heresy of everyday fires and stress, and when night comes, it feels like one of the few times that we can actually do work uninterrupted. And it really isn't a good thing... I mean, we're overworking, overstressed, and it doesn't help that not only is our superior new, our subordinates are lacking in something or other. It used to be that coming to office was something that wasn't all that bad? But for some reason, nowadays, coming to office itself is a chore, and there's no longer that kind of happiness of being stressed, but in its place, a desire to be released from the stress. So unlike me... but well, perhaps it's not just me, since Lincoln and Wilson themselves also feel like throwing in the towel.
As for VS 130, I'm feeling bogged down by that as well... let me show you an e-mail I received from a certain someone recently.
"daniel, in future pls provide the necc updates thru me as part of the entire committee. when SL ask for input and updates on programme, i wld like it to be done holistically and not in parts. u are answerable to me and my job is to string together both programme and space requirements. also, i did not request for a detail timeline, i asked that you prepare a detailed timeline for better illustration to the rest of the committee. that is my instructions to you as my sub-com member.
pls give me your updated input ASAP as i am preparing a overall update on programme to the MC.
i must stressed that i am quite surprised that despite we had an internal more than 2-weeks back, you have not done much as instructed by me. with time running out, it seems that we are now being forced into a reactionary mode, something that i dont practice nor appreciate.pls staff me your input i its most accurate form ASAP."
Well, what could I say right? Given that, as in the e-mail, I'm his sub-comm member, so it feels like what I do is not right or at the very least, as what ZY and I have deduced, not making him look good. I don't know... I just feel so irksome when I'm working on this VS130 project, because it dawned on me that it's not something that I enjoy. Granted, I am at fault for some part of it, but well, I don't know anymore, you know? I mean, I used to be happy organising events, despite all the work that came along, as well as all the planning... I don't know... I mean, this is really kinda bad... I need to find back all my passion and enthusiasm for Victoria to begin with, and everything else that earned my my reputation for being an efficient leader. But under Vernon, it seems like he's doubting ZY and my capabilities, and perhaps it's a sign from God that I'm not doing my best and everything, but it just feels so darn infuriating that it's turning out to be this way. And when we requested that someone else do the presentation, he called me up and literally scolded me over the phone. And he made himself seem like a perfect angel, and that everything is all our fault. ZY and I really got pissed off, but in the end, we decided that the dinner is more important, so we'll hold our anger till the event is over, and then after that, I'll never work under him again. That much I promise.
Apart from all these stress, Social Night is over, and it was another event that I felt was helped by God. I mean, the night before the event, we were forced to change venue, as the previous venue at MOX was too expensive, and the sleazy working tactics was too precarious to take it on. In the end, we changed to a KTV Pub along Kampong Bahru road, and the entire cost was like $3000 for free flow of alcohol and free flow of food. So I guess it really was a good deal. The night went well, thanks to Chiew Mei, my date, who was so nice and caring and everything... I also got relatively drunk that night. What with helping Ervin to down his mug of Guiness Stout and Tiger Beer thanks to S2... and in the end, it just feels quite bad. Haha... Thanks to Haowei who drove us back to camp, but that night, I think I asked too many questions to Chiew, Gayne and Maggie... haha...
Intra Council was, all in all, great. I think 23rd are awfully cute! Haha... we played floorball, basketball and soccer from 11am onwards, and my goodness, it was a tiring day! But seeing 19th, and also the huge load of 21st that turned up, was seriously heartening, that is until I counted 20th attendance, and in all, majority of the guys were there. But then again, we only had about 10 plus people. Oh well, it's alright. 23rd is putting in a lot of effort into their prep for Openhouse, so I'm looking forward to seeing them in action. Heard that National Day went smoothly, so great! Hahaha...
All the best, 23rd!
I'm holding on.
Happy National Day... It's a holiday for some, but not for most... especially if you, like the men of 'D' Company, 30 SCE are involved in the marching contingent of the parade later. It's been so long since I was last involved in a major parade, any my claims to fame happen to be SYF Parade and my own Commissioning Parade. Haha... what's bygone is bygone, in any sense and as I'm writing to you, I realise that I've still got work that I've yet to do.
These last week or so hasn't been anything good, to begin with, what with S3 going on course and dropping majority, if not, ALL of his workload onto the shoulders of Wilson, Lincoln and myself. And, given that CPT Pang has yet to come back from his holiday, it seems like the fort will be held by the three of us once again, except this time around, it's not going to be easy. I find the three of us being stressed out and bogged down by the heresy of everyday fires and stress, and when night comes, it feels like one of the few times that we can actually do work uninterrupted. And it really isn't a good thing... I mean, we're overworking, overstressed, and it doesn't help that not only is our superior new, our subordinates are lacking in something or other. It used to be that coming to office was something that wasn't all that bad? But for some reason, nowadays, coming to office itself is a chore, and there's no longer that kind of happiness of being stressed, but in its place, a desire to be released from the stress. So unlike me... but well, perhaps it's not just me, since Lincoln and Wilson themselves also feel like throwing in the towel.
As for VS 130, I'm feeling bogged down by that as well... let me show you an e-mail I received from a certain someone recently.
"daniel, in future pls provide the necc updates thru me as part of the entire committee. when SL ask for input and updates on programme, i wld like it to be done holistically and not in parts. u are answerable to me and my job is to string together both programme and space requirements. also, i did not request for a detail timeline, i asked that you prepare a detailed timeline for better illustration to the rest of the committee. that is my instructions to you as my sub-com member.
pls give me your updated input ASAP as i am preparing a overall update on programme to the MC.
i must stressed that i am quite surprised that despite we had an internal more than 2-weeks back, you have not done much as instructed by me. with time running out, it seems that we are now being forced into a reactionary mode, something that i dont practice nor appreciate.pls staff me your input i its most accurate form ASAP."
Well, what could I say right? Given that, as in the e-mail, I'm his sub-comm member, so it feels like what I do is not right or at the very least, as what ZY and I have deduced, not making him look good. I don't know... I just feel so irksome when I'm working on this VS130 project, because it dawned on me that it's not something that I enjoy. Granted, I am at fault for some part of it, but well, I don't know anymore, you know? I mean, I used to be happy organising events, despite all the work that came along, as well as all the planning... I don't know... I mean, this is really kinda bad... I need to find back all my passion and enthusiasm for Victoria to begin with, and everything else that earned my my reputation for being an efficient leader. But under Vernon, it seems like he's doubting ZY and my capabilities, and perhaps it's a sign from God that I'm not doing my best and everything, but it just feels so darn infuriating that it's turning out to be this way. And when we requested that someone else do the presentation, he called me up and literally scolded me over the phone. And he made himself seem like a perfect angel, and that everything is all our fault. ZY and I really got pissed off, but in the end, we decided that the dinner is more important, so we'll hold our anger till the event is over, and then after that, I'll never work under him again. That much I promise.
Apart from all these stress, Social Night is over, and it was another event that I felt was helped by God. I mean, the night before the event, we were forced to change venue, as the previous venue at MOX was too expensive, and the sleazy working tactics was too precarious to take it on. In the end, we changed to a KTV Pub along Kampong Bahru road, and the entire cost was like $3000 for free flow of alcohol and free flow of food. So I guess it really was a good deal. The night went well, thanks to Chiew Mei, my date, who was so nice and caring and everything... I also got relatively drunk that night. What with helping Ervin to down his mug of Guiness Stout and Tiger Beer thanks to S2... and in the end, it just feels quite bad. Haha... Thanks to Haowei who drove us back to camp, but that night, I think I asked too many questions to Chiew, Gayne and Maggie... haha...
Intra Council was, all in all, great. I think 23rd are awfully cute! Haha... we played floorball, basketball and soccer from 11am onwards, and my goodness, it was a tiring day! But seeing 19th, and also the huge load of 21st that turned up, was seriously heartening, that is until I counted 20th attendance, and in all, majority of the guys were there. But then again, we only had about 10 plus people. Oh well, it's alright. 23rd is putting in a lot of effort into their prep for Openhouse, so I'm looking forward to seeing them in action. Heard that National Day went smoothly, so great! Hahaha...
All the best, 23rd!
I'm holding on.
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