Dear Mandy...

This week hasn't been good at all... what with landmine field camp... almost losing a mine... it was a really tiring week... sighz... but in any case, everything went ok in the end, and if anything, i think we bonded more, which is good, but it affects my judgment on myself, and I keep thinking I'm going to OOC... I don't know how well I'm doing, and for sure, I don't know what they're looking for... but I do know that everything is not right... feels not right... I dunno.

What is true is true i guess? Life's like that... I miss my friends... those that I were v v close to... now... everyone's in their own lives now, moving on in separate paths... and slowly, we're drifting apart. I feel so mucu for intra council now... days when we would meet up. I'm sorry... haha... I'm being sentimental.

Dear Mandy...
I'm weary. Yeah... and it's honestly weird... cause I never thought I'd say that... Now that everyone's back... Bridging, CBRE... it's a whole new world... haha... It has been requiring a lot more of patience, of tolerance, of being more accommodating and greater friendly competition, coupled with an increasingly fast training program which is driving me nuts...

I need to be able to be my old crazy, helpful and ever ready self once again... the guy who can chiong and not get tired until it's all over... but it's becomes increasingly hard to do so... lack of sleep and a weary mind takes it's toll i guess... and i can't help it. I also realised so many flaws about myself, and I guess I need to change myself slowly, but surely...

To the person whom I have done wrong to, I'm so sorry... I'll work doubly hard to earn back your trust again... thank you for being understanding.

Take care pple...