Heyz Mandy..

In a blink of an eye... it's the end of block leave and come monday, i shall report to my new unit. Yes, I have managed to enter the prestigious Officer Cadet School, together with Deepak and Jason from council, Syaz from NCC (Air), Daniel Law from prefex, Amir from me study group... yeapz.. a lot of people made it to SISPEC though, and I for one am surprised I made it to OCS... I shall adopt a positive attitude and try my best in there... it's not going to be easy... but I have to try.

I went back to Elects camp to see 21st and the 22nd elects... and well, a lot of changes have been made to the camp, but i hope that things are for the better. The effects of the training can only be seen in the work and efficiency the Elects display in their undertakings. They do have potential... but it remains to be seen how they use it to their best.

And I love my darling... :)

Dear Mandy...

Ok, I've officially graduated from BMT, and have been promoted from the rank of RECRUIT to the wonderful rank of PRIVATE. Sounds kinda ironic, but hey! It's the end of BMT, and the start of a new phase... it just means to me that my NS life is moving on, and soon, i hope, that it'll be over soon... being in NS is really a furore of feelings to me... and also a period of time whereby i face lots of competition to be the best... perhaps this environment is good for me in a sense... forcing me to try to be the best... but well, I'm also trying hard to be content with what I have, and who I am... I really don't wish to prove anything... just pass whatever i need to pass, meet the minimum requirement, do my best. I believe that's the best for me...

Also got back my A level results le, though not exactly fantastic, but it's enough to get me to university, so I'm more or less contented with what I have. I did make an improvement, as did a lot of us, so just take it with a pinch of salt, and move on from here. This period of my life is one frought with disappointments and setbacks, and I cannot deny that I have been affected by it in terms of confidence and other things, but life goes on as it always does. One can only pick himself up from where he fell and press on courageously, making sure that he puts in enough effort to not fall back into the same pit. Even if he does, he's gotta regain his footing again. That's life.

Thinking back on all the memories that I made in VS, VJC and also in some weird sense, BMT. Realise that we all have made our own time ours to hold and have, something that is quite a memorable incident. Jing-Yi asked me yesterday to state my most memorable moment and most satisfying moment in my Council term. I said my most satisfying moment was the day we all took off our tags... and I realised that we actually achieved more than what we set out to do... and we had met our vision and our objectives... we had succeeded. My most memorable moment, were the times when we had reflections, or like the presentation that joel made, or when we were reading the letters of thanks given by other councillors, and that feeling we all felt... that for one single moment, it was the same. It may have been in varying doses, but for that one moment, everyone was feeling the same emotion, and it is indeed, the time when 2oth was truly, truly united as one council. Wonder if what i said makes sense to u, but it does to me... :)

Being in NS has made me realise the importance of time management and maintaining friendships. As Shih Yuan said... Cherish ur friends well... and I really am trying... but unfortunately, NS doesn't allow much time for that when u are concurrently in ur training phase... and that kinda sucks, but I'm going to have to live with it. Would like to apologise now to the people that I have been neglecting for the past year or so, and would like to ask for your understanding that I'm trying to make time. SO please pardon me for being MIA for so long... esp to Kalyn and Abby... yeahz. So so sorry.

I shall end here now... till next time.