Heyz Mandy...
How fast time flies... in a blink of an eye, A levels is just 4 days away... when the clock strikes midnight on the 3rd november 2004, it signifies that it has begun. The dreaded A Levels... oh well... it's a hurdle I have to cross anyway, so I guess it's better to go ahead with it and take it as it is...
I dropped Biology as I got EEOO for my preliminary examinations... not good at all, and well, I dropped after a lot of considerations as I guess I am more suited to persue 3 A level subjects than 4. It's definitely a better option for me, cause i have more time, but unfortunately, perhaps I should have done that earlier... yeahz....
Suddenly had the startling realization that I'm not exacly living my life for myself... like I let others rule my decisions, and I always think for the welfare of other people before I do anything. It is good to a certain extent, but similarly, it is bad as well... I realised that I need more personal time to myself... to pursue the things I love, and to do things my way... I so want to go for lessons on modern dance, to spend time to find back my poetry and stories, to spend time with the people I cherish, to spend time with Yingz, and to play basketball and improve on the sports i want to... there're so many things I have yet to do... and so little time left... I'm almost at the end of my teenage years... I'm a kadult... somewhere between a teen and an adult. Someone with the responsibilities of an adult, but with the restrictions of a teen... haha... in other words, a in-between.. to the people reading my blog, do u ever feel the same way?
I feel a need to focus more... haha... sounds like Acuvue Focus Dailies... nvm... being lame... Need to stop being swayed to play, and need to start doing more work, and knowing when and where not to do stuff. Need to get a hold on myself... but I'll be totally changing the way I am... sounds superficial... sigh... I'll just have to try my best I guess... but yet, I am aware of the fact that many a time, the best you give is not enough... Well... that's so ironic, but as the World works, there's always an opposite... as Newton's 3rd law suggests... for every force exerted on a body A, there is an equal and opposite force acting on Body A... sighz..
Hmm... there's a saying "every person that walks past you has a problem greater than you.". I guess it's relatively true... because for every aspect, there's always a problem at a higher level than you... and you'll never know until you have managed to earn the trust of that person, and that too takes time.... I like being the way I am... but well, I can't help that not everyone accepts me the way I am.. I'm aware of that fact... so, I'm sorry to people who can't accept me, because I'm not changing the way I am.
The battle is coming upon us... A levels... we are the army chosen to fight this war... let us place our best efforts and skills to the test, and let us press forward... together, let's conquer the paper for the pen is mightier than the sword. :)
All the best.