Dear Mandy...

THe worst has happened. Yeahz... she's avoiding me. Thanks.

See you.

Heyz Mandy...

Happy Valentine's Day!! For me.... friendship day and Valentine's Day have been quite good... she hugged me thrice in 2 days!! Haha.... and I got an SMS just now... she said she can't bear to eat the chocolates I made for her that spell her name... and she's just so sweet... but I hope that well... Things can carry on the way they are... I'm just contented to see her happy... Am I being dumb? I hope not... I just can't stop thinking of her.... haha... okay, I'm going crazy.

Today... dunno what happened to me as well... ran 4.8km... and suddenly got this pain at the abdomen area.... kinda piercing pain.... and couldn't continue running.... but pushed myself... and then, at the last 70m dash.... couldn't stop in time, and I just slipped and fell... couldn't breathe properly... then, hurt like hell... position: 280. Worst than last year... kinda disappointed in myself, then I saw Meng... he trained so hard to be in the top 20, but he got a terrible stitch... yet he pressed on all the way, coming in as the 37... but he trained so hard... and to miss his target... the pain was so immense... he cried. It's rare to see him cry... and for this kinda thing... I guess that he's really upset... haiz...

Then... the prize presentation, which I was the MC... and I had problem breathing... but still pressed on... coz the show must go on rite? Luckily, the MC-ing went alright... but during mass dance... the pain got more intense... but still beared with it... had gritted teeth... haha... first time I ever danced with that kind of face... and then after mass dance... so intense I just dropped on the floor. :s Thanks to Priya and Miss Siow for their help... but when the VS guys started cheering, I just hecked the pain and ran in there to cheer... then made it worse. bleah. Anywayz... thanks to Kristy P for the 100 plus and the care... and to Grace and Jacob too... thank you...

Then the meeting with 21st... I really got closer to some of the 21st nominees... especially Melody, which now, I'm classified as a scandal with her... what the... she's just my mei k? Nothing between us... anyway, the meeting with 21st was quite bad.... think coz I was trying to balance the pain, and also quite disappointed, so I lost my temper... but after that, calmed down and resumed the normal tone of talking to them... reminder to self: gotta curb that... stop being too nice... Anywayz... after that I gave them chocolates that I bought specially for them... coz after all, it is Valentine's Day... so yupz... to any 21st who happen to drop by... happy Valentine's Day, but at the same time, please please please don't compromise your standards k... You all have potential... just try to change somethings, and you'll reach there... really.

After that... went back to Council room to evaluate the meeting, which really didn't go well... then we presented the people with the gifts we bought them... flowers for Priya, Kaval, Hui Zhi, Joanna and Rachel, and notebooks for Grace, Anhua, Hui Yi and Melissa... then... the huge one... prepared the two sets of chocolates, the notebook and the card... and asked her outside... she really is very very sweet... Everything she does is so perfect... goodness... I must be going crazy. Then I walked her out... *blush*... shall stop mooning to you Mandy...

Anhua gave me chocolates!! Haha... really surprised that I'd get it... actually... so touched... it's the first time i ever got anything from Anhua... and she's such a great friend to me... my best friend in VJC... yeah... :) She came in 8th today! So proud of her... :)

Suddenly thinking about the past memories... and realised that we as the 20th council have come a long way... from innocent and naive nominees to the Councillors we are now... the tears and the joy we shared cannot be summed up in words alone... I really won't forget the small details of the memories we have had so far... The sing-a-longs, the Council stairs, the Council room, the canteen corridor, the concourse, the reading rooms... the places we would have our small, but meaningful conversations... Openhouse, SDD, Orientation 1 and 2, National Day, Farewell Assembly and Teachers' Day... these events that we worked hard together for... made our bonds stronger... the general meetings, committee meetings, ad-hoc meetings... all these things, though serious events, but still, memorable in their own ways... how did time every fly so quickly until we are left with the realisation that it's almost time for us to handover to the 21st... I really miss those times we had... really... and I love every single one of you in 20th... thank you... for the memories and the friendships and the love you gave me.

Heyz Mandy...

Well, a lot has happened... yesterday was the first Nominee's meeting, and to be honest, I don't think we were harsh at all... in fact, I'd say we were very mild considered to how 19th treated us, but I guess that every batch differs... Already 7 people have withdrawn from being a nominee, and I'm really quite upset and disappointed that Shi Qi and SiMin have decided to call it quits with being part of the 21st Students' Council... Shi Qi is really a potential candidate as a Councillor... and I really am quite sad... She had her own reasons though, and I guess the least I can do is to just respect her decision and wish her all the best in her VJ term. SiMin though, was already quite hesitant about picking up the form, and well, she couldn't even explain her reasons for backing out to me... I guess perhaps it's too much of me to have tried to talk these people into staying... I get more disappointed and more upset each time they still decide on quitting... Did we really do anything wrong? And were we overboard? I don't know... but... haiz... How are we going to make 21st better than us? I'm at a loss of what to do now.

And well, Joanna's suspended from the Council, and I'm really pissed off at the teachers' decision... they should have done the suspension last yr, from the O1 planning so that she could focus on her re-assessments... but they didn't... and now that she didn't do well, they decide to suspend her when it's near the end of her Council term... and they even want to take off her tags... Man, if they did that, they'd see no end to the things that we'd do... I would definitely revolt against them... I really don't know what's so wrong with some of the VJC teachers! They like to do things to their own whim and fancy... and they claim that they do it for the best of our interest... and maybe some people might say that I'm being baised, but I dont think I am... they try to cover up for their mistakes but they do it at the wrong time and the wrong ways... there are more ways to help Joanna pull up her grades, and if they think that dismissal from the Council is the way out, then perhaps they should reconsider their stand as teachers.

Today's entry seems to be rather pessimistic... yeah... but I guess I ought to add on... worried about Common Test 1... I really hope I can pass everything... but my mind seems very weary... keep wanting to sleep... and my body gets weary very easily... haiz.... what is wrong with me? *Sighzy*

Anywayz, would like to thank Anhua and Kristy mei for their help and support... Anhua is sooo sweet! Haha.... she's always there for you, and always with a smile on her face when u need it, despite you not being in contact with her for sometime... and when she smiles... you know that she really cares, unlike some fake people... and my mei mei... she's just the best... she's dancing for musicfest 2004, and I saw the choreographed parts of the dance, and I daresay that the effort they have been putting in is really commendable... all the way to you all... :)

Okayz... that's a long entry already... till next time Mandy... see you.