KKez, VJC won ACJC in hockey today... it was 1-1 in full time, and then, we won 3-2 in penalty flicks... Stephanie was amazing, having saved 3 penalties... and Priscisaurus was sooo cool... haha... looking calm and composed when inside she was worried like a speed bullet train that has gone amok! Haha... but then again, I can't expect too much of Priscilla, I mean, not a lot of pple could have been able to handle the stress that she was carrying as well as she can. Don't worry Pris, I'm really really proud of you today... hehe... :)

The hectic week is finally over, and I can meet up on sleep, rest and well, some other stuff... like my studies, and pre-u seminar. Haiz, by the way, thanks Rachel... today was going for lunch with the Councillors and all, and we couldn't really reach a decision on where to eat, so in the end we were strolling about on the 3rd floor, waiting for a seat at Banquet, and another grp just left la, and I was getting kinda tired... emotionally and physically, so I left without a word, then headed back to school. I smsed Bryan, but he din read it until he came back from lunch. I was surprised that Rachel called me up, and asked me where I was. She is so sweet, even offered to get Sara to buy lunch for me. I'm really lucky to have such a good friend in Rachel... so, thank u Rachel. :)

Listening to 'Love, me' by Collin Rave now, trying to think of how to perfect that song for Jo, coz I want to learn a song for all the people in Council that have been so dear to me... Hui Yi, Jo, Rachel, Kristy Koh, Grace, Melissa, Dominique, Lynette... so many... think I'll end up learning a song for each person...

Mid-years coming up very soon, and I'm not really ready. Have to make full use of the hols to catch up and revise... 3 weeks isn't a lot of time though... will have to work very very hard... jia you!

Right, been too long too long since I last wrote in here... shall do some updating. Very stressed all of a sudden... match support have been testing my endurance level, and on Monday, we had a really bad thrashing session by Mr. Teo la... he actually wanted to scream our heads off, but since it was a long day, he reckoned a softer approach would end things faster... or we'd just end up crying and things like that. Then there is the upcoming Chemistry test on bonding come Friday, and I haven't even touched my notes yet, and the chinese story report, which incidentally, I too have yet to complete... :( life is hectic, i dun deny it... but well... i could really seriously use a break.

Today went home with Abby... was so happy lor... but she was like 30mins late, coz she just finished her sailing at East Coast, and her teacher had an extra long debriefing, so she overshot the time we were supposed to meet. In the end, we took the same bus home... missed her so much... but didn't know how to tell her the things that I've gone through so far, coz I could tell she was tired and she had a lot on her mind, so i let her do most of the talking... halfway through the bus ride, I just put my arm around her, gently laid her head on my shoulder and told her to sleep, coz it was so obvious that she was really tired out. And she slept like an adorable little baby! Haha... its the first time in 7 years that I've seen her sleep la, so pardon me for my childishness. And she gave me a hug... needed one quite badly la... so we made a pact to try and go home together every Wed... yay... now I don't have to neglect my best friend anymore.

Joanna's going through quite a tough time nowadays... she got so upset that her 2.4 run was 11.40 something, that she cried. I felt kinda unhappy I couldn't have been there for here... all I could do was just try to comfort her... but seriously... Jo's a great friend... I hope she gets Tze Hin! Haha... think it'd be a great morale booster for her if she does end up with him.... but then again, Tze Hin's a bit hard to read... nvm... better not to get involved after I introduced him to her today.

Haiz... Rachel refuses to let me play with her ponytail!! Yes Rachel, referring to you... hmph... btw, Jo and I agree that you look much more beautiful and sweet with your hair down... but of course, i know its warm out there, so tying ur hair up is cooler... anyway, I feel kinda bad that we haven't been talking much to each other... but things have been rather hectic lately... dunch worry though, Rachel's still one of my bestest friends... :)

Kkez, me gtg now... take care!

Ok, so general meeting's over... and surprisingly, 20th is more bonded... my bestest friends in Council, Rachel and Joanna, have renewed faith in the Council, and I'm glad... really glad... the feeling of a new beginning in Council, burying the hatchet and moving on... I really really feel so relieved. I cried during the GM at the point where we were listing the problems of 20th, but i really felt so stressed out abt how we would maintain the legacy of 20 years of Council... its really no easy feat... 20 years of history, of a beautiful tradition that has kept its title as the cream of the crop... the leaders of the school. Well, 20th will be strong, and we'll be together, moving on.

Think that today's Chinese Common test will be a flop... started out with a mind block for the compo, then the paper 2 was a killer paper... so confusing! Then the listening compre... some passages were like rounding abt the forest... bleah... not a good result going to come out i think.

Bought the wristbands for Joanna le... orange colour, puma onez, but when trying to write the words of encouragement at the back, the end results was a bit ugly... :(... haiz, hope she'll still like it la.. :)

Well, been trying to study for MT but well, covered what was majorly impt, like the idioms and the long idioms... now I sound like an idiot... studying idioms... great, I've gone nuts. Been really in a whirlwind today... thinking so much about things that I know I probably shouldn't even be thinking about, but can't help thinking. Then, went to meet Abby for a while... so happy to finally be able to meet up with my best friend, and I've been really guilty coz she lives just 2 blocks away from me, and I haven't been able to give her the time and support she's been needing... i can only sms her and that's all I've been able to do! Feel like kinda of a bad fren... Abby means a lot to me... but somehow or rather, can't even seem to find time for her... some friend I'm turning out to be...

Been playing basketball a lot lately, just trying to forget all my problems... played with a sore knee and something wrong to my thigh, can't even make head or tail of what what injuries I have. Feel better inflicting pain on myself nowadays... takes a load off the things that go through my mind... but yest... I totally missed all the three-pointers i tried... 2/14 i think... what a low hit point average! And the day before i did better! 6/12! What in the world is happening to me? I'm failing in everything I do! I'm a lousy Exco member, a lousy councillor, a lousy basketballer, a lousy friend, a lousy senior, a lousy singer... in short, a lousy person.

I believe that in VS, things were much better... so much more better... I miss Victoria School, and I miss Mr. Ong's tuition classes, and Sany, and some pple in my Physics tuition class... I miss Jasmine Chan, Celestine Wong, Ng PeiShan, the ZhongHua gang, Michelle jie, Gotcha, the whole Group 2 in A. Maths tuition, Kianz, Samantha mei... so many pple that I care for... and yet... I seem to have let them down, one by one... not being able to be there for them, not being able to talk to them... I feel so horrible... why did this have to happen... haiz...

"This feels horrible, and so bad
That I can't be able to not be sad.
My friends all there, waiting for me
and yet I'm here, busy and not free...
I'm sorry, i really am...
I want to be there for them
No one to blame except myself...
put the blame on on one self."

To my da jie, Michelle... WELCOME!! Haha... :)

Hmmz... well, let me see.. so many things have happened recently, that even I don't know where to start. So rare that I finally get a few minutes off to come online... :) Anywayz, last night was totally horrible... had a match support session for soccer, and then it was quite a mess and everything... following that, we had this really bad 19th and 20th debriefing... and then now, the entire ECO is more or less split apart... so sad... and we're going to have a thrashing session soon, but how can we even have one if not everyone is there? Its seriously so difficult to have strong cohesion in ECO... and now, I'm starting to doubt my own abilities... but I shall not show it.. cannot show it... because, like it or not... I must be the VERY LAST PERSON to lose my confidence and also the last one to be discouraged... so I shall not.
HI JASMINE! Haha... know that you are my newest person to be in my blog... so, shall give u this really warm welcome... though cant really say its warm... nvm... :) so funny how we've gotten close huh? Haha... don't worry abt me Jas, I'm fine... :)
Saw Jacqueline today... haha... she complained that my blog never update... hehe, hope she feels better abt it now... got an entry that involves her! haha... she's still the same, but could feel that we don't really have that kind of telepathy we once had... its a wonder what distance can do to two good friends... :(
suddenly feel really overwhelmed... want so badly to see all my secondary school friends again... Peishan, Abby, Qiqi, Kalyn, Lee MIn, Queenie, Jasmine mei, Jennifer.... so many! I really wish I knew how they are now... and I wonder if they ever think of me.

Well, things seem to be quite complicated nowadays... haha... bvut what can I do? Studies, Council... and a whole lot of other problems coming on all at the same time... not fun... definitely not fun at all... I think I flunked my Chemistry Lecture Test... and well, think I just have to hold on... can't let a lot of pple know this is happening to me... :( so sad...
kkez, just wanted to fill up something here... will write more next round... promise...